So today I went for life con for the first time. I guess it was good? Generally it was just a more upbeat and empowering chapel service, but still it was an experience. One takeaway from tonight is "God's peace surpasses all understanding.". I think that is the essential thing for me to understand right at this point in time. Currently, I'm going through the "dark days" for my JC life. Not that it was all a bed of roses in the past, but yeah, things have been bad and my emotions have been on the loose. Honestly, my emotional maturity is extremely low, and time and time again I find myself stuck in this rut of -what do I call it- failure? Perhaps, failing NAPFA countless of times is part of God's plan? Or then again, maybe not. I've been 2 weeks off my revision schedule and here I am thinking, or should I say overthinking, that I'm weak minded because I just can't get my legs to run, or get myself to study. But here God says that we are all imperfect, and through our imperfections, only can we see the power of God in us. And one more thing to take away from life con: No matter how much of a failure you are to yourself or to anybody for that matter, no matter how many mistakes you make, no matter how many disappointments you commit to others, God knows, and God is there to carry the burden for you. Nothing is impossible with the Father.
I will give you all my praise. Hallelujah. Save me oh Lord. Bring me back to where I am close to you.
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