Day 3: Much better day - maybe it was my mood, but people seemed friendlier? EMK brought me out for lunch and treated me to chatterbox - my 1st time eating that atas $10 chicken rice. It was alright, although there were still awkward moments of silence in between our meal. Idk maybe she just doesn't put in any effort to talk to me? I feel like a burden to her, sian, when will I earn her recognition? Do I need to? Heard her speaking to clients over the phone and wow her personality was totally different - like laughing and smiling and upbeat all. Oh lol, the facades we all put up at work. Waited for LC and MM to knock off before grabbing to MelvG's house for his bbq. Met my predecessor Grem and other people around the office so good choice to go. Everyone was really friendly, and maybe it was the plentiful amount of booze around, but conversations were easy. LC is really nice and you can see he actually puts in effort to make conversation (a skill, my friend), but MM is just like ugh-i-don't-want-to-hang-out-with-lame-ol-me. LMAO. oh well. Cheers to better days. Met some girlies around the office so yay me.
Day 4: Finally have access to the platform, so read up a bit on the various deals before W comes back from Aus. EMK was super busy taking calls today and I felt like I couldn't help in anything - oh well. Ate lunch alone today (sobs) but didn't feel that hungry anyway - should have asked my 2 kakis - I need to stop being so awkward!!! EMK cleared questions w me at the end of the day, and wow she IS knowledgeable - really want to reach that level quick. Tbh I feel that she is not that cold, she just probably is as awkward as me. Left early, ok not early, but earlier than usual - 6:30 - cause I didn't see a point waiting for EMK to get back from the toilet just to say pleasantries like 'have a nice weekend'. Oh well, looking forward to the 4 day weekend whoots! Work awaits next week and Idk how the power dynamic works when W is back but putting everything in the Lord's hands. Really pray I can pick up things fast and absorb absorb and improve!! Also, probably am signing up again for L2, sighs, I failed quite badly for CF + Ec parts thats why I didn't pass, but ain't stop can't stop till we reach the top. Still heartbreaks for the thousand bucks.
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