Life con

So today I went for life con for the first time. I guess it was good? Generally it was just a more upbeat and empowering chapel service, but still it was an experience. One takeaway from tonight is "God's peace surpasses all understanding.". I think that is the essential thing for me to understand right at this point in time. Currently, I'm going through the "dark days" for my JC life. Not that it was all a bed of roses in the past, but yeah, things have been bad and my emotions have been on the loose. Honestly, my emotional maturity is extremely low, and time and time again I find myself stuck in this rut of -what do I call it- failure? Perhaps, failing NAPFA countless of times is part of God's plan? Or then again, maybe not. I've been 2 weeks off my revision schedule and here I am thinking, or should I say overthinking,  that I'm weak minded because I just can't get my legs to run, or get myself to study. But here God says that we are all imperfect, and through our imperfections, only can we see the power of God in us. And one more thing to take away from life con: No matter how much of a failure you are to yourself or to anybody for that matter, no matter how many mistakes you make, no matter how many disappointments you commit to others, God knows, and God is there to carry the burden for you. Nothing is impossible with the Father.

I will give you all my praise. Hallelujah. Save me oh Lord. Bring me back to where I am close to you.

感谢

Today was the release of PW results and most of the papers for BT1 and boy am I glad things turned out fine. :-) Thank you Lord, Thank you so much. It was like time and time again I find myself falling short of an A every time I collect back a single subject result slip - Chinese, O Levels, Chinese As. And disappointment just engulfs me because I missed it by just that much. But this time, I got an A. To think those nights or trauma and dry eyes didn't go to waste. Thank you Lord. I really have no greater person to thank other God, because without his favour, I would have never gotten this result.

On a side note, I did not pass NAPFA. But I'll just have to keep trying for that.

BT1s are over and everyone is gearing up for BT2s. Trolling on the net has led me to find out that hey, even people like kblm are doing fine, what about me? I really need to buck up. PW is just 10/90 points. Never be complacent. Sometimes I just feel so lazy, but I've got to kick that habit before it becomes permanent. Keep up the positivity, don't let failures get you down. Because if experience hasn't shown you, as long you keep trying and putting your best effort, God will never let you down. And you know what they say? God can make miracles :-) Always keep the faith and just keep pushing on!

If you don't work for what you want,
Don't cry for what you lost.

先苦后甜