one-sided intentions

Maybe it was a shift in the weather. Or the fact that it was the time of the month. Or maybe I was just thinking too much. Either way, I truly did have a mini-or whatever your wanna call it crush on KK. Sighs. Then again, I really wish for him to be happy with whoever he's with now.

Dealing with it day by day, it's getting better. And at least we still talk. I just find myself thinking back to the what-ifs and could-bes, but then again it's better if I don't. Rationally speaking, I might have shown more interest aside from his occasional heart emojis on skype, but then again, it all means nothing. I still hope we remain good friends, and that he'll invite me to his wedding. And at that point in time, I really wish I can be happy for him. 

*cues Oh Wonder's Happy on repeat*

limbo

Was randomly looking thru (my now defunct account) @itsouou and had a sudden wave of reminiscence at my past life. The hipster life where all I cared about was good coffee, nice kicks, getting a good shot for the gram. The chill life I guess - but it was all a facade, burying the worry and uncertainty of the "future" I was to expect back then.

Then again, it was a nice aesthetic period of my youth I guess. Now - no longer chasing after a good cuppa, no longer taking 20 minutes to get a good shot. But sometimes, I feel myself lapsing back to that converse-wearing, striped shirt and tote bag combination of fashion that just shows the hipster I was / wanted to be back then, and now. Heels, midis, tight fitting dresses - those were never really my thing, but yet I feel myself gravitating towards them now as a working adult, where I kind of need to fit in. Fit the image of a feminine, or at least put together lady. Aha, the wonders of fashion to set the impression.

On a side note, really wanted to go back to Korea, but alas coronavirus is here...