Sunday 1 November 2015

简单不是更好吗

渴了就喝水 困了就去睡
孤单无聊时 音乐是安慰
快乐就微笑 伤心就流泪
很少的妄想 很少的后悔

真心爱过谁 都需要感谢 
真的要告别 不必太纠结
听风听雨声 看海看流星
宽阔的心情 更容易感动

做一个简单的人哪怕太天真
不想对明天总是太多的疑问
一个人看电影慢跑 一个人听着歌睡着 
用一个孩子的本能 信你说的任何可能 
做一个简单的人不需要天份 
不过是自己找到快乐的过程 
虽然总是太多烦恼 在睡梦中全部忘掉 
清晨的风依然美好 唤醒我最单纯的心跳 
清晨的风依然美好

whirlpools only go down

I just want someone to tell me it's okay.  It's okay not to get a 4.5 GPA. It's okay not to have a boyfriend. It's okay to grow old alone. It's okay to just be enough. It's okay to just try each and everyday. It's okay to be mediocre. It's okay to not be who you want me to.


Time and time again, I feel the waves of being not enough. Not smart enough to match up to my peers, not pretty enough to match up to his ideal type, not kind or positive enough to be a good friend.

I feel myself drowning and drowning, but time is not stopping. Time is carrying on, people are trudging on and so should i. But i feel like I sprained my ankle and can't get up. But the thing is that no one knows, or no one believes me because I'm sitting down. And therefore I'm left behind, all alone.

20 more days to finals, and I'm screwed.

I do want it. I do want a scholarship to go to LSE, to get out of here. But will there be a difference? Won't it be the same? study study study. Get a good grade because your parents invested so much in you.

I do want a 1st class honours, to get a good job, a 'good' future.

I do want a boyfriend, to spend time with me, love me and help me out in ways I can't do so myself.

I do want it all.


you never understand