If God is for you, who can be against you?

same cycles again.

But know that the Lord has plans for you. Plans to prosper you and give you a hope for the future.

Whatever is impossible with man, is possible with God.

Mind over matter. Just do your best.

you are enough

timely reminder:

1. I don't need a boyfriend to complete me. yes, it's a nice feeling to have. But I'm enough. God's love is enough.

2. There will always be someone out there smarter, prettier, more accomplished, funnier etc. But I'm me, and that's enough. Be contented with who you are. You don't have to do what you don't want to do. You don't have to become someone else who achieves more. Just do your best.

3. Find joy in the things around you. Life is hard. But everyone is struggling in their own way. Stress, friendships, wrong choices, wrong decisions, heartbreaks, family. Make do with what God has given you. It is enough for you.

4. Don't blow things up. It's might not seem for things to be okay, when you screw up. But, then again, life is short, there's always another way out. Don't overthink. Just, move on. Learn and get up and go again.

everything will be okay.

i tell myself that.

but when i see the dark grey clouds looming ahead,

the signs are all clear.

yet my legs are stuck firm on the ground

not moving.

why?

ain't i gonna get killed?

i still can't move.

procrastinating positivity

Sometimes i'd like to believe that everything will be okay.  

In the end, we'll come to terms with our shortcomings, with our successes and with our failures. 

To put things in perspective, sometimes we blow things out of proportion, we place too much emphasis on one thing and fail to see its insignificance in the grander scheme of things. 

Sure, it may be important, but that doesn't mean that its the end. 

Life has many turns - it's up to you to see the brighter side. In the 70 - 90 years of your life, at the end, it might not matter whether you got an A or whether you became a successful accountant. 

The thing I'm trying to drive at is that: just do your best. Sometimes, yes, it may not be enough. But then again, what can you do about it. Just move on. Try again. 

Smile, even though it's hard. Because being positive will make things easier. Everyone is going through the same shit, but it's up to you to survive on your own. So smile. Make yourself happy. Don't base it on others.

It's only a bad day, not a bad life. Go on.

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So I'm at that point again - mid semester - when the tests all start piling in, and I start under-performing, and realising how subpar by grasp on each modules is.

I would like to think that I do try really hard, but sometimes handwork maybe just doesn't make the cut. My peers were all 4H2 kids, from top tier schools and here I am struggling to keep afloat. Why is it that I take so long to understand something the teacher says. Why is it that I have to write every single thing down - only to take a few more hours to get it (or not even) - and others can just commit it to memory when the teacher says it.

After a while, it gets tiring. It gets tiring to keep on struggling and to see nothing coming out in fruition. It gets tiring to keep having to compare. It gets tiring when I'll never see the top.

Expectations - people expect things of me - things that I want to, but cannot produce. And I myself ask myself - why? Why can't I do it? What makes me so lacking? Weren't we all from the same education system? Is it just me?

Lord, give me strength to carry on. Help me not to give up even when I don't know the reason to carry on. Give me a reason Lord. Please. Help me. I cannot do this alone. I'm tired, really tired.

tired

Falling back into the cycle of being so tired, of feeling like giving up.

But the only way out is through isn't it.

Why do I grasp concepts so slowly?

Why am I the only one who seems to be struggling to stay afloat?

Somebody, save me.

Lord, please, save me.